Yesterday was hard on me
I am doing okay, but I had to have a massive cry and calm down to remember I am actually okay.
I feel very lonely, like I have a lot on my shoulders, and my plant business is really struggling because I can't be at my booth to sell like I used to be able to... Which means loss of income.
I need to hire someone, but they'll need to be really good because paying someone is not cheap and they will have to earn their keep.
I am trying to find ways that I don't need to run around as much at market, but it's really difficult.
One of the board members/vendors is sending me stressful texts because she is breaching our Rules and Regulations, and I let her know gently what she needed to change. I told her to write a letter to the board and she did, so that's fine but it's just piled on with everything else.
It's just a lot and it's year end financials and AGM coming up, we're rolling into holiday season, in terms of prep.
I need to research the best way to heat our canopy this season. I can't let my vendors be cold for another winter.
I had to borrow money from my brother which I have never done and it makes me feel like such a loser (but it's enabling me to go to counselling tomorrow).
Things will go up from here. I know I can get back to a stable mindset again but holy anxiety batman.
I am super tired and I hope the board gives me a raaaise mama. 😔
I feel very lonely, like I have a lot on my shoulders, and my plant business is really struggling because I can't be at my booth to sell like I used to be able to... Which means loss of income.
I need to hire someone, but they'll need to be really good because paying someone is not cheap and they will have to earn their keep.
I am trying to find ways that I don't need to run around as much at market, but it's really difficult.
One of the board members/vendors is sending me stressful texts because she is breaching our Rules and Regulations, and I let her know gently what she needed to change. I told her to write a letter to the board and she did, so that's fine but it's just piled on with everything else.
It's just a lot and it's year end financials and AGM coming up, we're rolling into holiday season, in terms of prep.
I need to research the best way to heat our canopy this season. I can't let my vendors be cold for another winter.
I had to borrow money from my brother which I have never done and it makes me feel like such a loser (but it's enabling me to go to counselling tomorrow).
Things will go up from here. I know I can get back to a stable mindset again but holy anxiety batman.
I am super tired and I hope the board gives me a raaaise mama. 😔
