I'm really starting to accept that my mum was really messed up

She obviously didn't know what she was getting into having children, and had a terrible childhood herself.

I remember trying to explain to her from a young age that it hurt me breathe sometimes, I couldn't get enough air, my vision would go in and out (especially when running)

She would always wave it off, and tell me I was just being a wimp

I moved away. I saw a doctor and was diagnosed with asthma.

I ignored it.

Got diagnosed again when I moved to another city.

I don't use a puffer anymore, but sometimes it was really essential