I hate life and honestly I only look forward to instant gratification.

I only like getting drunk.

I only like eating.

Those are the only two things that don't fill me with dread.

Everything else leaves room for my horrible, painful thoughts and memories.

Everything besides eating and drinking is actually, actively painful and I hate it.

Maybe sleeping is okay but only because I need it if I don't do it enough. Once I awake from sleeping, I get disappointed that I'm still alive outside my dreams.

I hate living and I hate myself for being such a disappointment.

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Boeing · 36-40

Weeellll !!! For your particular case, I got to draw that old Winston's Churchill quote outta my library:

IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH HELL, KEEP GOING

Yeah, take it and write it somewhere and look at it daily.

And then secondary, as a complimentary treatment, take this older song from beloveds Black Eyed Peas

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and cry out your tears, scream out your fears, and get it started, whatever that means to you buddy.

fun4us2b · M

You need to crowd out the bad thoughts with being busy - like a crabgrass lawn, you can overwhelm the weeds with clover and grass seeds...ok, I've never gotten it to work...but at least it's not all weeds, so it's not too bad....Volunteering and physical activity....or psych meds, but they are not a panacea...sense of purpose is very important - and I've told others here - even seekeing out what your purpose is - is sort of a purpose in itself............

JaneDoee · 22-25, F

"I hate life and honestly I only look forward to instant gratification."

i feel called out

MyMonstersAreReal · F

I wish I had the words to help. Just now I’m here.
Pls keep fighting 🥺
Music always says it’s better

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Floki · M

Negative self talk doesn’t help

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