I haven't felt this regulated in forever 🖤

At first I felt this desperation, but his words evaporate from my mind all the time. I can't believe how affected I was. How anxious and afraid. How not myself I was.

And now I just feel calm. Like all the rushing stopped and I can breathe.

There's some repairs to be made. I hate using certain terms, but this was definitely abuse and it changed me. Not permanently. I've been broken so many times it's just another puzzle to put together and I will.

It's just crazy to me how calm I feel after finally cutting the cord between us completely. And the only magic I needed was to block him from calling or texting. He won't make anymore effort than that, I know him. And he won't mess with me because he knows I'm scary lol

I got my life back! 🥳

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Justhereee · 36-40, M

Congrats for reclaiming that, now all the healing and awesomeness begins!

EldritchFox

@Justhereee YES I can't even describe how real I feel again! It was almost instant! Let's do this!!!!!

Justhereee · 36-40, M

@EldritchFox 😌 Hells yeah, I’ll bring the special broccoli to celebrate your victory!

Sutten · 41-45, F

I have experienced that calm when I cut certain people off. It's a good feeling to be able to breathe. 🫂 🌻

EldritchFox

@Sutten you don't realize how much someone rules over you until they're gone. It's such a good feeling ☺

Chern0bylplaygr0unds

You were never broken just conditioned as a child by care takers who didn't know what they were doing in the first place ...

I'm happy that you are feeling better...it takes time but you get there in the end

EldritchFox

@Chern0bylplaygr0unds he definitely used that to his advantage, whether knowingly or not, he was abusive.

Thank you. I'm so happy there's no going back. And even though it has affected me in negative ways, I feel really light and positive about rebuilding myself. Like the second half of my life has hope again 🖤

Boeing · 36-40

that's wonderful. I got a mini taste of it: I have created a new Facebook page and I block the people that my gut says NO instantly. No questions, no compassion or pity or whatsoever, just, I hear you, and quickly moving on. It's taken me a lifetime, and I still am confused about some. But it's worth it.
Proud of you!!!

EldritchFox

@Boeing Thank you lady and I'm glad to hear you're finding your way through it all too. I don't think I could handle Facebook at this point. It feels so good to have my inner world back 🥰

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