So I have again seen a bad dream of my bullies last night. What does it mean?
So I have already shared previously that I still frequently get dreams of this guy Arjun who was my classmate in 5th to 10th grade and bullied me a lot. Yeah I do get his dreams as he bullied me the most in class regularly humiliating me, insulting me, making me do embarrassing tasks and hitting me but this time I mostly got dream of these 2 guys- Sai Prasad and Sraavan. So after Arjun, I would say Sai Prasad was another one who bothered me. He was topper of the class academically and respected by peers and also teacher's favorite. He was nice and normal to everyone else and only mean to me. He used to often belittle me and make fun of me that I was a loser or dumb and call me a jackass and others used to laugh and once even called me an error in this world and often tried to convince others that I was a loser or dumb. And he would threaten me as well if I dared to fight back saying if I ever mess with anyone in class, he will screw me. Sraavan was another guy who was friendly with me in 5th to 7th grade but suddenly became hostile to me in 8th to 10th grade especially after Arjun increased his severity and Sai Prasad was there.
My academic performance was getting down due to the bullying in 9th grade and Sraavan would often mock me saying how my brain wasn't even 1/10th of his brain. He would often mock me and sometimes sit on my seat and not let me in which gave Arjun and other bullies a good chance to bully me. Sraavan also has hit me several times in class too and obvious he always laughed when Arjun humiliated or insulted me. So yeah now let's come back to the dream. In the dream, I was just starting my 1st year of undergrads which feels strange as in real life I am already 25 and even done with my MBA. In the dream, I saw all my college classmates were those same classmates like Arjun, Sai Prasad, Sraavan etc which made me feel trapped again. In the dream, even though Arjun tried to bully me too, it was mainly Sai Prasad and Sraavan who bullied me. I ended up sitting next to Sai Prasad and also Sraavan was front of me. Sai Prasad as usual was belittling me whereas Sraavan was mocking my intelligence. Whenever I tried to stand my ground, Sai Prasad would try to silence me by pressing my hand hard which he did in school days too and Sraavan was laughing.
But what's surprising was that in the dream I had the mix of my current confidence and also my past hesitation so yeah in my dream i tried to talk to the girls from my college as if I was the confident current 25 year old me but at the same time feeling hesitant to initiate too. I remember for some reason all my school days peers were in the college in the dream so I was hesitant as everyone had pre-conceived notions about me as the shy bullied kid. Suddenly i saw Sai Prasad, Sraavan, Arjun and other classmates appearing which made me even more trapped and hesitant to initiate with the girls and I suddenly woke up and realized it was a dream and felt unsettled. Idk why I remembered it. Maybe because yesterday(13th August) was a special date as 13th August 2024 was when I overcome my shyness and reflecting about the bullying days and when I was isolated
My academic performance was getting down due to the bullying in 9th grade and Sraavan would often mock me saying how my brain wasn't even 1/10th of his brain. He would often mock me and sometimes sit on my seat and not let me in which gave Arjun and other bullies a good chance to bully me. Sraavan also has hit me several times in class too and obvious he always laughed when Arjun humiliated or insulted me. So yeah now let's come back to the dream. In the dream, I was just starting my 1st year of undergrads which feels strange as in real life I am already 25 and even done with my MBA. In the dream, I saw all my college classmates were those same classmates like Arjun, Sai Prasad, Sraavan etc which made me feel trapped again. In the dream, even though Arjun tried to bully me too, it was mainly Sai Prasad and Sraavan who bullied me. I ended up sitting next to Sai Prasad and also Sraavan was front of me. Sai Prasad as usual was belittling me whereas Sraavan was mocking my intelligence. Whenever I tried to stand my ground, Sai Prasad would try to silence me by pressing my hand hard which he did in school days too and Sraavan was laughing.
But what's surprising was that in the dream I had the mix of my current confidence and also my past hesitation so yeah in my dream i tried to talk to the girls from my college as if I was the confident current 25 year old me but at the same time feeling hesitant to initiate too. I remember for some reason all my school days peers were in the college in the dream so I was hesitant as everyone had pre-conceived notions about me as the shy bullied kid. Suddenly i saw Sai Prasad, Sraavan, Arjun and other classmates appearing which made me even more trapped and hesitant to initiate with the girls and I suddenly woke up and realized it was a dream and felt unsettled. Idk why I remembered it. Maybe because yesterday(13th August) was a special date as 13th August 2024 was when I overcome my shyness and reflecting about the bullying days and when I was isolated
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