It's not entertaining watching people act like they have it all together.

So much is hidden in the highs. The inevitable downward spirals we all experience becomes their stage for validation. Things seem to get resolved but nobody really cares what the problem is. Nice words, jokes about not caring and moving on.

We all go through cycles. I feel empathy, but I keep my distance from the overly ambitious highs.

I try to keep myself even and humble because I know the ups and downs will happen and I can't pretend I have it all figured out only to be slapped by my own words at any given moment.

The amount I have learned about humans and human history shows me one thing in particular.

We are always at war. If we're not at war with others, we're at war with ourselves.

I choose peace. Not up nor down. Not hidden nor fabricated. And I know that doesn't look like sunshine and rainbows. It doesn't get me friends or popularity. But I'm also not recruiting anyone into my battles.

I'd rather be honest about my humanity and be ignored.

The ups and downs, the screaming and silence, the here today and gone tomorrow, it's disorienting.