If I go to a cafe and hire a caregiver to be with me, does that mean I'm alone or not?
I'm so confused. Because if I do he's a person too and we might even become friends and do something together (I wouldn't be able to treat him in anyway less than a friend and I might as well say thank you 🐰) Except I'll be paying him to be with me so I can go spend time with myself and watch a movie or something on my phone because I can't be fully alone if I really want to pull this off.
AT THE SAME TIME a few people offered to do it for free and this specific guy wants to be friends with me. We agreed on hanging out at a cafe but for the 3rd day things keep coming up.
Another one was an old man but he's toooooo talkative after one phone call I couldn't afford to try and meet him I will not just settle for whatever life tosses towards me I stopped doing that shit.
NOW the thing with hiring a caregiver from a company is that they're going to be available anytime if one is busy they're going to send another and that makes them reliable. However I can only afford to hire 1 a week I don't think I'll need more than that.
A totally different option which I want to set a day each week to take my dad to the cafe because it's one of my responsibilities to do so. He never talks anymore so it's also same as going alone I get to phone one of my sisters or listen to music. Other days I get to go with mom for walks.
That's basically my summer. As for my best friend I only see him on weekends now because he started a new job.
There's more I think but it's not certain yet. And I do deserve more that's at least how I see it.
AT THE SAME TIME a few people offered to do it for free and this specific guy wants to be friends with me. We agreed on hanging out at a cafe but for the 3rd day things keep coming up.
Another one was an old man but he's toooooo talkative after one phone call I couldn't afford to try and meet him I will not just settle for whatever life tosses towards me I stopped doing that shit.
NOW the thing with hiring a caregiver from a company is that they're going to be available anytime if one is busy they're going to send another and that makes them reliable. However I can only afford to hire 1 a week I don't think I'll need more than that.
A totally different option which I want to set a day each week to take my dad to the cafe because it's one of my responsibilities to do so. He never talks anymore so it's also same as going alone I get to phone one of my sisters or listen to music. Other days I get to go with mom for walks.
That's basically my summer. As for my best friend I only see him on weekends now because he started a new job.
There's more I think but it's not certain yet. And I do deserve more that's at least how I see it.
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