I kinda want to just quit.

My job physically hurts. I'm having some back and nerve issues and work makes it worse. I can't keep up with 18 year olds. I'm tired of being expected to. It's just gotten so painful. I've gone emotionally numb trying to block out the consumerism and classism. I hate it. I hate that I put up with so much crap for so long. Until it breaks me. But I also don't have much choice.

I really want to talk to my boss tomorrow and tell them I'm in too much pain. And then never go back in that place again.

I've been really tough lately. Speaking up for myself with a new coolness of someone who can't really be hurt anymore. Someone plainly and accutely aware of the exact truth and not playing along with anyone's dumb lies or excuses.

I can't minimize myself anymore. I'm crushed. Physically and mentally and I know damn well I deserve to be loved and lifted up. If no one else will, I will lift myself up.

Maybe quitting this job won't fix anything, but if I don't do something different I'm going to cripple into nothing...