Stupid brain

I don't know why I'm starting to worry that I might not see my new interesting friend again. I mean he had a pretty good reason to cancel hanging out 2 days ago but I still worry.
It's just the feeling or more like a fact that these things never last for me is at the back of my head messing with my thoughts.
I just want to be heard for once outside of my online life. I want nothing else tbh. It's as simple as that.