I am so careful who I let myself fall for...

I am very selective. I choose people who I see and feel something unique and honest with. And they always go for someone that is temporarily and superficially enamored with them and breaks their heart.

I always get the quick blow off, the 🙂, and I know it's time to move on. They're more excited about the next nutso prospect.

I don't want to end up with someone who is using me so they aren't alone. I just got away from that.

I've made my mistakes. I've done my time as the good woman that gets treated like crap and taken all that blame.

But every time I feel that spark, I know it's not nothing, I'm not an easy person to spark, it takes something meaningful.

It's just consistently unrequited.

I'm getting older. I'm trying to make peace with the fact it isn't happening.