Non of this is my fault
It isn't yours either
You are trying your best
Even if you are not trying you are
Treat yourself the way you'd treat a loved one
Be patient with yourself and let go
Let go of the things you can't control
It's going to be ok and if it won't for a while it's ok
You won't always get what you want but that's also ok
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Just reflections from the book I been reading. I been reading about self compassion and equanimity.
The way the author talks about uncertainty, unpredictability and such while living with chronic illness and her own experience with dozens of doctors and different treatments that mostly lead to disappointment it all feels very relatable very familiar.
There is also this chapter and asking for help and explaining yourself to those who can't tell you need help or how you need it. Like for intance in one situation she asks this front desk lady at a doctor's office if there's a way she could lie down while waiting the lady lead her to an empty room with an examining table where she can rest. I myself have done that a lot and now I even ask in advance about that option.
Another time she explains to a van driver who's supposed to drive her home from the airport who has been waiting for more passengers to come from other flights. After waiting for 20 minutes dead tired she explained her situation that she's sick and asked him if he can call his dispatcher if he can get her home right away which he did and it went smoothly. Again same with me when traveling I get to choose between staying on my chair inside our van or to lie down in the back or to get in the front passenger seat it all depends on my state that exact moment which is unpredictable af and also the distance.
You are trying your best
Even if you are not trying you are
Treat yourself the way you'd treat a loved one
Be patient with yourself and let go
Let go of the things you can't control
It's going to be ok and if it won't for a while it's ok
You won't always get what you want but that's also ok
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Just reflections from the book I been reading. I been reading about self compassion and equanimity.
Let things take their natural course. Then your mind will become still in any
surroundings, like a clear forest pool. All kinds of wonderful, rare animals will come to drink at the pool.... You will see many strange and wonderful things come and go, but you will be still. This is the happiness of the Buddha. — AJaHN
CHAH
surroundings, like a clear forest pool. All kinds of wonderful, rare animals will come to drink at the pool.... You will see many strange and wonderful things come and go, but you will be still. This is the happiness of the Buddha. — AJaHN
CHAH
The way the author talks about uncertainty, unpredictability and such while living with chronic illness and her own experience with dozens of doctors and different treatments that mostly lead to disappointment it all feels very relatable very familiar.
There is also this chapter and asking for help and explaining yourself to those who can't tell you need help or how you need it. Like for intance in one situation she asks this front desk lady at a doctor's office if there's a way she could lie down while waiting the lady lead her to an empty room with an examining table where she can rest. I myself have done that a lot and now I even ask in advance about that option.
Another time she explains to a van driver who's supposed to drive her home from the airport who has been waiting for more passengers to come from other flights. After waiting for 20 minutes dead tired she explained her situation that she's sick and asked him if he can call his dispatcher if he can get her home right away which he did and it went smoothly. Again same with me when traveling I get to choose between staying on my chair inside our van or to lie down in the back or to get in the front passenger seat it all depends on my state that exact moment which is unpredictable af and also the distance.
31-35, M
