So I will finally share here how I used to feel during my undergrad college years and then in MBA too. Do you relate too?
So after entering my undergrad college years which was in engineering, I remember feeling like a particular big cat and that is the Leopard. Thats because I remember watching animal documentaries and saw how leopards in Africa gets dominated by lions and hyenas. In college, I was still carrying the wounds and trust issues after facing so much bullying in school so I used to be isolated in college, shy, silent, wishing no one notice me just like a leopard is shown. I even got used by several guys in college who took my snacks, money and other stuffs from me and I really saw them the "hyenas". I saw the more extroverted guys as lions. The college was male dominated tho as its engineering college in Kanakapura road which was at outskirts of our city Bangalore in India, so less girls and I didn't have any female interactions during those years. I remember even when preparing for afternoon exam in college, I will sit somewhere isolated or hidden from others as I didn't like socializing at all those times. I remember hearing songs by band Korn a lot those days especially in my 1st and 2nd year. I especially loved their song Faget the most followed by Divine and Kill You (aka most of their debut album and Life Is Peachy songs) and often felt as if I was Jonathan Davis himself walking around. But yeah mostly I felt like the leopard often hiding from others, staying isolated and shy and getting used by other guys just like how leopards get their food stolen by hyenas and lions. Surprisingly tho whenever I went to my hometown Siliguri in West Bengal, India for some reason I felt more like the Sri Lankan Leopard as the leopards in Sri Lanka are top predators as no tigers or lions there but when I returned to Bangalore and especially the college, I again felt like the African leopard dominated by lions and hyenas. But now at 25, as I am much more confident and bolder and exploring around confidently and initiating conversations with women even foreign women who are strangers, I definitely feel more like a confident young male lion now instead of a leopard.
By the way in MBA especially at starting in 2023, I no longer felt like the leopard or any animal tho. I used to feel as if i was Niko Bellic tho who was the protagonist of the game GTA 4. Thats because I was playing the storyline of GTA 4 and related to Niko as he had a dark past and I was also still struggling socially, still shy, had a terrible bullying history, a long isolated engineering life and many more. I remember in my MBA campus, I felt as if I was Niko Bellic walking among others. I used to also imagine others maybe being like Dimitri Rascalov(the game's antagonist) and Ray Bulgarin(the another antagonist who was hostile to Niko too who had history with him) and like the Russian mafia of Hove Beach in the game who later becomes hostile to Niko Bellic. Sometimes I used to also remember how badly I was treated in school days by bullies, many hated me and laughed at me or mocked me and how different and supportive my MBA environment was and no one was hostile so I compared the school environment to Hove Beach of GTA 4 and the MBA environment to other parts of Liberty City and compared it to how Hove Beach was hostile to Niko due to the Russian Mafia but other parts of Liberty City was so much better to him. So in 1st year of MBA, I often felt as if I was Niko Bellic just like how I felt like a leopard in my engineering years.
By the way in MBA especially at starting in 2023, I no longer felt like the leopard or any animal tho. I used to feel as if i was Niko Bellic tho who was the protagonist of the game GTA 4. Thats because I was playing the storyline of GTA 4 and related to Niko as he had a dark past and I was also still struggling socially, still shy, had a terrible bullying history, a long isolated engineering life and many more. I remember in my MBA campus, I felt as if I was Niko Bellic walking among others. I used to also imagine others maybe being like Dimitri Rascalov(the game's antagonist) and Ray Bulgarin(the another antagonist who was hostile to Niko too who had history with him) and like the Russian mafia of Hove Beach in the game who later becomes hostile to Niko Bellic. Sometimes I used to also remember how badly I was treated in school days by bullies, many hated me and laughed at me or mocked me and how different and supportive my MBA environment was and no one was hostile so I compared the school environment to Hove Beach of GTA 4 and the MBA environment to other parts of Liberty City and compared it to how Hove Beach was hostile to Niko due to the Russian Mafia but other parts of Liberty City was so much better to him. So in 1st year of MBA, I often felt as if I was Niko Bellic just like how I felt like a leopard in my engineering years.
22-25, M
