This song also reminds me of that phase surprisingly. Do you like this song by the way?
So this song is The House Of Wolves by the band Bring Me the Horizon. So in one of my previous posts i posted how the song Sleepwalking by the same band Bring Me the Horizon reminds me of that early to mid 2018 phase when I was completing/just freshly completed my 12th grade board exams at 17 and was isolated in home preparing for competitive exams to get into a college, playing GTA 4 in home, going for evening walks in our area Munnekolala in Bangalore in India, getting very occasional visits by only 1 friend Harshit who was my classmate in 11th and 12th grade and especially chatting regularly with this 48 year old Scottish man Coary on Kik app whom I initially met on this site SW itself in 2016. Yeah I had no friends due to trust issues after facing so much bullying in school, 0 female interactions due to shyness and low self-esteem and didn't trust peer aged boys so mostly chatted with Coary all day as at first he was supportive to me when I shared about my bullying and all but started mostly bringing his topics, the boys with whom he chatted and that he was attracted to only males and even several topics saying I was old enough as 16 and 17 are adults in his country Scotland but I definitely didn't feel grown at all at 17. But yeah I used to hear Sleepwalking a lot so that song reminds me of that phase.
But this song The House of Wolves I only started hearing 2 years ago at 2024 at the age of 23 and didn't hear it at that time in 2018 but still this song reminds me of that phase of Isolation and chats with Coary. That's probably because both the songs are from BMTH's 2013 album Sempiternal and both has the same darker yet aggresive tone. Also as at 2024 I finally overcome my shyness in my MBA campus, I was suddenly reflecting about Coary and that how much isolated I was. As I was talking to women more in campus, it was a huge contrast to that isolated phase. But as the semester was ending and the final semester of MBA in early 2025 was gonna be just dissertation and there won't be regular classes, I was sad as I just got confidence and now classes were nearly done and I was worried what if I get isolated like that again in home like I did at 17 as I definitely didn't want to slip back to that phase again so I was hearing this song a lot and remembering that isolating phase and Coary chats and dreading. But I adapted by going out more to Central areas of our city Bangalore in India and socializing with women even foreign ones even if they are strangers and being more confident and exploring around the city instead of isolating myself in home anymore. So yeah now at 25 I am much different but this song still gives me chills and reminds me of that phase.
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But this song The House of Wolves I only started hearing 2 years ago at 2024 at the age of 23 and didn't hear it at that time in 2018 but still this song reminds me of that phase of Isolation and chats with Coary. That's probably because both the songs are from BMTH's 2013 album Sempiternal and both has the same darker yet aggresive tone. Also as at 2024 I finally overcome my shyness in my MBA campus, I was suddenly reflecting about Coary and that how much isolated I was. As I was talking to women more in campus, it was a huge contrast to that isolated phase. But as the semester was ending and the final semester of MBA in early 2025 was gonna be just dissertation and there won't be regular classes, I was sad as I just got confidence and now classes were nearly done and I was worried what if I get isolated like that again in home like I did at 17 as I definitely didn't want to slip back to that phase again so I was hearing this song a lot and remembering that isolating phase and Coary chats and dreading. But I adapted by going out more to Central areas of our city Bangalore in India and socializing with women even foreign ones even if they are strangers and being more confident and exploring around the city instead of isolating myself in home anymore. So yeah now at 25 I am much different but this song still gives me chills and reminds me of that phase.
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22-25, M
