Self reminder

I must remind myself not to trust anyone who's hurt me or did me wrong. I'll have to pretend everything is alright though just for my mom.

I don't feel I can forgive my brother again. I've done it way more than I should. I'm not allowing him to mistreat me again. I mean recently he told me he has a job for me and then he forgot I guess? I reminded him in a message and he ignored it. Then he goes to teach a stranger so that she does work with him. I think the message is clear. I'll never mention any of that to him anyway I won't do this to myself I have my self respect too. Our last argument was ridiculous all because he accused me of saying something which his friend is allowed to say but I'm not. I'm done giving him chances. I wish him success and stuff but I'm pulling myself out and even if he offers me to do some work with him I will decline I'm not that desperate. I don't need anything from him.

I do have some work to do these days which is nice and will keep me distacted. I just hope I don't end up forgiving him because this shit won't stop.