I had a massive panic attack today. I usually don't experience fear, I experience anger mostly..rage rather than fear.

I've had those before, they are not fun.

I'm sorry you're going through it. Trauma the body remembers and stores for later, which sucks because often times we just don't know and it affects every aspect.

I feel like I shouldn't give advice but I will anyways just in case. The reason I feel like that is cos I recognize that you been through it and nothing I say will change anything that's happened or is happening to those you love. I am just sorry because I know the feeling and it does suck.

So I'll just give what I have done when I was fighting them really hard. I really can't speak from your experience because I'm not you but acceptance therapy has worked wonders for me.

Panic attacks are a feedback loop and gets worse when you fight against it, the more you fight, the more you train your body that something is wrong. Even telling yourself that you're fine (in the context of white knuckling it, ) teaches the brain that you aren't fine cos then your brain thinks "wait I'm not okay?"

The good news is when you have a panic attack, your body is actively trying to save you. Most of the symptoms are from adrenaline like the dreamy state so it doesn't come from a bad place, it literally does think you're dying though and it wants you to live.

Also panic attacks are a continuation of the first panic attack you had, your body remembers it and is really just repeating the first experience of it over and over again, so it likely that you'll get the same symptoms over and over.

Believe it or not, the best solution that I've found is to just do nothing and go with the bad feelings and to allow myself to feel that, even to will it on. Back when I had them, l felt weird for a few hours but eventually it will go away.

The reason I am trying to be cautious is that it's harder said than done when the feeling is caused by things you just can't control. I'm sorry you're going through this and I hope it gets better.

Take care of yourself and don't forget to also do things that make you happy in the moment ♥

You help tremendously.

I had several anxiety attacks just recently, and I learned an interesting thing. When I have looping thoughts I normally respond to them in some way, either with superstition (for example I say 7, 9, 13 in my mind, because I have a feeling that the thought will manifest in reality if I don't "dispell" it, even though I am well aware that that's completely irrational), or I calm myself down by thinking things like: If the terrible thing happened then I'd know ablut it by now, or similar. The interesting thing I learned is to simply observe the thoughts. Instead of responding by continuing to think about it, even if it's to calm myself down, I observe the thought. I mentally look at it, rreat it like something foreign to myself, because that's what an intrusive thought is. To be clear, it's not like I completely stopped engaging right away, but just being selfaware about this from time to time really helped me break the cycle, and it has much less power now. Idk if this will help you, but I recommend it based on my own experience. It was my husband who came up with it.

I wish you could try some clonazepam for short-term, acute, PRN usage just for moments like this, giving your body a break until your mind can catch up with non-chemical coping skills 🤗

Try anything that can settle you down. Laying down in darkness and soft music in the background?