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@Breadroll: me too but in order to stop bothering my mind with the feeling of loneliness and am thinking of following my ambitions, hopefully on March I will feel happy amd forget a little about my fear, because in the end everyone gets what they deserve, but this is a phase that I always go through, because I hate it, even though I cannot be like them.
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@Breadroll: because I always lie to myself and believe the lie, and tell any guy that even if he replaces me with another lady, it does not matter to me anymore because I got used to being the one any guy enjoys using her to get any lady jealous or for their own advantage.
Once my female friend wanted me to cure my fear, and be like my ex-husband and any guy who would use me, and marry her brother for his passport, but I could not agree, I just cannot be like those people who enjoy getting married for any stupid nationality or for the money or the fame because this is the main problem in my life. I bet if my life was less than any lady around, I would probably be loved for who I am. That is why I lie to myself that I can live with being replaced and lonely even if someone is in my life, but deep down I am torn, and I keep it locked to myself. This is why I am completing my unfinished dreams and going back to my past ambitions but this time instead of wishing that there would be a guy who would design dresses for me, I will be the one designing dresses for the ladies who wish to be able to look gorgeous on a dress even if she is fat, at least I would be doing something positive for others that I could not do for myself in the past.
Once my female friend wanted me to cure my fear, and be like my ex-husband and any guy who would use me, and marry her brother for his passport, but I could not agree, I just cannot be like those people who enjoy getting married for any stupid nationality or for the money or the fame because this is the main problem in my life. I bet if my life was less than any lady around, I would probably be loved for who I am. That is why I lie to myself that I can live with being replaced and lonely even if someone is in my life, but deep down I am torn, and I keep it locked to myself. This is why I am completing my unfinished dreams and going back to my past ambitions but this time instead of wishing that there would be a guy who would design dresses for me, I will be the one designing dresses for the ladies who wish to be able to look gorgeous on a dress even if she is fat, at least I would be doing something positive for others that I could not do for myself in the past.