Damn this slowed version of this song is making me feel more emotional and sad. How can I stop feeling this way?

So this is the slowed and reverb version of the song Love Story by Edward Maya who is a Romanian DJ and singer. A lot of Edward Maya's songs makes me emotional. This song Love Story already makes me emotional but the slowed version feels heavier. Thats because these songs makes me feel I missed out a lot due to bullying in school and shyness. This song gives me the vibe of a guy and girl have some carefree and fun moments talking, giggling and fun outings. Like I imagine this with a woman in my age group (20s) who is maybe Bengali too or North Indian or something. This is what I missed out on by being shy throughout my teenage years and some of early 20s too. This song also reminds me of the outing with Soniya who was my classmate in 1st semester of MBA in 2023 when I was 22. We were both Bengali so we went out for our Bengali festival Durga Puja in our city Bangalore in India. Yeah Bangalore is in South India but Durga puja is celebrated here by Bengali communities. The outing was fun, we had biryani for lunch, lots of laugh and what not and I felt as if I belonged. Now I miss her and those moments and even miss Anshika who was my crush and wish I was more confident and we talked more in class and made more memories. I fully overcome my shyness at 23 but I was in 3rd semester and MBA was nearly over so I could socialize but time was limited in campus. Now I am 25 and fully done with MBA 6 months ago and in a long job searching phase so not much social life as campus life is done so I go out and confidently socialize with both Indian and foreign expat women in Cafes, bookstores, mall courtyards of cosmopolitan central parts of Bangalore. But most are one time interactions. I really feel sad for missing out on those carefree interactions with girls. It especially makes my heart ache when I imagine the people who are in University or MBA having these moments probably whereas I missed out and all I am doing is just socializing with women in Cafes instead. This song always makes things feel bittersweet. Sometimes I feel emotional, sometimes FOMO(Fear of Missing Out) and sometimes lots of warmth feeling. So hear the song

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