This is so boring here in the reception. What should I even do?
So in my previous post I mentioned that my dad's ex-colleague's son Ayush is getting married and it's near Bull Temple of our city Bangalore in India. He is 24 and I am 25 and he is marrying his gf whom he dated during his undergrads in engineering. Today is the reception and tomorrow is the wedding. But damn it's so boring here. Ayush is Bengali too like me and the girl is South Indian Kannadiga so both Bengali families and Kannadiga families came here. But here I am feeling bored and alone. It's just guests having photo sessions with Ayush and his soon to be wife so just sitting and waiting That's because my dad is with his male Bengali ex-colleagues circle and my mom is with their wives whereas I have no one. Actually Ayush's school days peers are there too here who are also 24-25 but I can't talk to them despite being in the same school and just a grade senior to them. That's because in these Bengali circles I was known as the more shy one and so was in Ayush's peers circle as I was shy due to bullying in school.
But during his engagement, I confidently talked with some of Ayush's female peers and socialized with them but my mom later scolded me saying me not to talk to multiple women and chase behind them and that the Bengali family friends circles will gossip and my reputation will be ruined. She wants me to maintain decorum and only talk if someone else initiates and not go behind multiple women even though it's just socializing and only wait for the right woman. Even before coming today, she said me not to try to talk to every woman i see or else others will gossip and my reputation will be ruined.(Yeah sadly many Indians worry about what will people think aka log kya kahenge) so yeah I am unable to socialize because of that and I have no close friends here. Also most peers and people are with their parents or families so socializing feels risky and harder here too. Overall it's boring. On the screen they are showing pics of romantic moments of Ayush and his soon to be wife. It makes me feel as if my socializing with women in Cafes and all didn't happen at all. There is 0 socializing. What should I even do to cope for some more time? I am not having the same freedom as my Central Bangalore outings where I am solo and socializing with women more.
But during his engagement, I confidently talked with some of Ayush's female peers and socialized with them but my mom later scolded me saying me not to talk to multiple women and chase behind them and that the Bengali family friends circles will gossip and my reputation will be ruined. She wants me to maintain decorum and only talk if someone else initiates and not go behind multiple women even though it's just socializing and only wait for the right woman. Even before coming today, she said me not to try to talk to every woman i see or else others will gossip and my reputation will be ruined.(Yeah sadly many Indians worry about what will people think aka log kya kahenge) so yeah I am unable to socialize because of that and I have no close friends here. Also most peers and people are with their parents or families so socializing feels risky and harder here too. Overall it's boring. On the screen they are showing pics of romantic moments of Ayush and his soon to be wife. It makes me feel as if my socializing with women in Cafes and all didn't happen at all. There is 0 socializing. What should I even do to cope for some more time? I am not having the same freedom as my Central Bangalore outings where I am solo and socializing with women more.
22-25, M
