Every Start Leads Me To An End

by:Rob Paquin

Am I no one, Am I nothing
Am I the product of my thinking
Am I kind, Am I caring
Or am I simply shrinking

Am I fractured , or am I whole
Am I my own source of benediction
Am I the tinder or am I flame
Inside of all my friction

Am I lost or am I found
Am I simply just a compass
For others who need guidance
Or just a fighter left here punchless

Am I a good guy or a bad guy
Because I can’t seem to find my reason
And all the love I ever gave
Seemed too far out of season

All the words have failed me
And though I spoke them truly
Most of them went misunderstood
And left me bereft and so unruly

Alone despite the hundred tries
Well beyond the thousand tears
Alone behind the million lies
That stole away my years

And now I close down all the pathways
That might ever lead to heart
As I contemplate my own beginning
And refuse another start.

~The Snowdog