I have kind words for people even if they don't give a crap about me.

I know I'm not a big messager. I'm just not. I'm a quiet person irl and I'm used to being ignored, so I come here and talk like someone is listening. Sometimes I journal, but it truly helps to be seen, even if no one responds. It's much easier to write out my thoughts than try to communicate. Communicating with people feels rushed and unfocused. Like they don't really care, they don't want to go deeper, whatever is easiest for them. It's rare I meet someone and we flow without excruciating effort, but it has happened.

I get along better with animals, nature and kids. With who there's less rules and expectations. More freedom of self. Less fear and holding back expression.

So even if people don't really like me, I'm still nice, because they don't know me. It's not that I'm a tough egg to crack, I am just needy for depth that most don't want.