The reason why I used to miss 2016 in 2019-2020 but nowadays I miss 2023-2024 more. Do you relate to it?
So yeah in this post i will explain. In 2019-2020 I used to badly miss 2016. That's because in 2016 I was still in school and that was a breakthrough year for me as I was entering 11th grade and finally escaped from my major bullies like Arjun, Sai Prasad etc who made my life hell in 8th to 10th grade by bullying me regularly. So yeah 2016 was the best as I was in 11th grade and also just left the pressure of 10th board exams(very big thing in India) and not yet fully pressurized about 12th grade board exams. That year was also amazing as I was just like 15-16 and I had an amazing trip to Goa with my parents, mom's friend and her family during our Bengali festival Durga puja vacations and it was very memorable and I remember eating crab for the first time there, enjoying beaches and seen a very tall European dude there who was definitely about 6'7-6'8 and I was just 5'7-5'8 at the time and the overnight bus journey from our city Bangalore in India was very memorable. But in 2019-2020 I was missing 2016 so much as that year I was in college doing engineering which included long commutes, being the only Bengali among mostly Kannada speaking students, being used to snacks or money by other guys and even worse Covid pandemic in 2020 when I was in home. I was really wishing for that 2016 Goa trip again. I used to often daydream about 2016 and that trip to feel positive whenever I felt down.
But things changed after 2023. In 2023 at the age of 22, I finally entered my MBA which was far better than my engineering years. I got crushes especially on Anshika which made me feel butterflies, she initiated conversations, even called me cute. I was a bit shy but just that memory of looking behind at class and feeling butterflies makes me nostalgic. Even this girl Soniya who was my platonic friend, tried to talk to me and we went out together on Durga puja in our city Bangalore which made 2023 Durga puja the most memorable. Early 2024 was memorable too as I was in 2nd sem of MBA and had crush on Akansha who was the prettiest in our campus for real and just that thrill of talking to her made early 2024 so memorable. Then in mid 2024, I had a major breakthrough as I fully got out of my shyness and started talking to girls from my campus especially Dimple. Even though she distanced herself later, the moment felt great as she was soft spoken, cute etc. I also talked to other girls in campus and finally felt confident and also went to UB City mall and newly talking to foreign expat women. Now at 25 in 2026 I miss 2023-2024 as I am freshly done with MBA and job seeking so unable to meet women organically like I could in MBA. I miss those moments with Anshika, Soniya, Akansha and Dimple and other women. I am cold approaching and more confident now with both Indian and foreign women including older foreign expats too but I miss that structure of 2023-2024 and everything still feels stagnant. Nowadays I don't miss 2016 at all because compared to my life in 2023-2026, honestly my 2016 life feels so small. I was just a teenager in school, still scared and fresh out of bullying, extremely shy near girls, very less freedom etc so yeah my life at ages 22-25 has been far better than my teenage years which were filled with bullying, shyness and isolation.
But things changed after 2023. In 2023 at the age of 22, I finally entered my MBA which was far better than my engineering years. I got crushes especially on Anshika which made me feel butterflies, she initiated conversations, even called me cute. I was a bit shy but just that memory of looking behind at class and feeling butterflies makes me nostalgic. Even this girl Soniya who was my platonic friend, tried to talk to me and we went out together on Durga puja in our city Bangalore which made 2023 Durga puja the most memorable. Early 2024 was memorable too as I was in 2nd sem of MBA and had crush on Akansha who was the prettiest in our campus for real and just that thrill of talking to her made early 2024 so memorable. Then in mid 2024, I had a major breakthrough as I fully got out of my shyness and started talking to girls from my campus especially Dimple. Even though she distanced herself later, the moment felt great as she was soft spoken, cute etc. I also talked to other girls in campus and finally felt confident and also went to UB City mall and newly talking to foreign expat women. Now at 25 in 2026 I miss 2023-2024 as I am freshly done with MBA and job seeking so unable to meet women organically like I could in MBA. I miss those moments with Anshika, Soniya, Akansha and Dimple and other women. I am cold approaching and more confident now with both Indian and foreign women including older foreign expats too but I miss that structure of 2023-2024 and everything still feels stagnant. Nowadays I don't miss 2016 at all because compared to my life in 2023-2026, honestly my 2016 life feels so small. I was just a teenager in school, still scared and fresh out of bullying, extremely shy near girls, very less freedom etc so yeah my life at ages 22-25 has been far better than my teenage years which were filled with bullying, shyness and isolation.
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