Not sure if I can name this feeling
I wish I could carry my baby niece and hold her till she sleeps. Or just carry her for a minute.
But no that's not meant for me, I can't do that because of my disability I can't even fully carry the weight of my own arms.
I don't want any sympathy or attention really I just been thinking for a minute about how her other uncle from her dad's side gets to carry her and I don't. Even if I was ever meant to have my own child someday I wouldn't be able to carry them.
I can only however get gifts for her or talk to her and laugh with her or put her on my lap for a quick picture. I guess that's it. And I'm trying to look at the full side of the cup.
Poor baby has a cold and can't sleep so I just wish I could help with anything. Her parents and my mom are tired and need to sleep.
But no that's not meant for me, I can't do that because of my disability I can't even fully carry the weight of my own arms.
I don't want any sympathy or attention really I just been thinking for a minute about how her other uncle from her dad's side gets to carry her and I don't. Even if I was ever meant to have my own child someday I wouldn't be able to carry them.
I can only however get gifts for her or talk to her and laugh with her or put her on my lap for a quick picture. I guess that's it. And I'm trying to look at the full side of the cup.
Poor baby has a cold and can't sleep so I just wish I could help with anything. Her parents and my mom are tired and need to sleep.
31-35, M
