My life becoming a routine of misery. And not the fun kind.

Better days ahead. Strange to be living my life but also observing it fall to pieces. Being forced to be someone I'm not to make it. I start EDMR soon and I will get help processing the old stuff and the new. All the while watching myself like a scientist and a student.

But ugh this is hard. And hard on my son. I want to give credit to growth but I'm also just pissed. We deserve better than this.