My close friend is telling me how running makes her feel free like the wind. Out of curiosity and since I’ve been taking longer walks during my Singapore Trip, I tried running for 3km today and it felt tiring but I DID FEEL free.
I was always an introvert and pretty much stuck inside my room and at home that my circle of friends always worry if I’m still alive or what.
However, this 2026, I’ve been thinking out of the box by going out of the country, reconciling with my family and dad, visiting my close friends, going out more, and accepting more challenges at work. I even scheduled mental health consultation to better understand my emotions and mind.
If it was the old me - I would’ve just bought some Divalproex and take it until I don’t feel anything anymore. Or I would’ve taken sleeping pills or do self-inflicted pain just to feel numb.
To be frank, I don’t know what happened but I just want to be better.
I’ve been depressed since 2010 right after my grandma died, after my first childhood love betrayed me, and my parents fightings that often led to their children fixing their mistakes and taking charge of the situation.
I’m done with self-pity and always blaming of others (not everything is because of what they did to me), when it was always me who didn’t fight back and just shut off my “humanity”.
Anyways, that’s all for today.
Here are some photos of cats I met during my steady-paced run.
And a bit of americano as a reward :).
Thank you for reading and hope y’all have a great day!
Congrats on taking such steps for yourself, I know it is not easy. Love the cat photos. Recently went to the island St John's and saw tons of roaming chickens, no photos though.
