Redesigning my life
When will someone call me and ask me "What do you want to do today" "Where do you want to go".
Maybe I'll be this person to me. I'll take me out it'll be me, myself, music and my coffee mug.We'll be happy and stuff.
I wish humans were not social beings by default. There's so much I want to talk about but I can't find the right person to tell them too not even my best friend. It's a daily struggle till I pick the wrong person and vent to them lol last time I literally cut a sort of friend out of my life after the shit I heard after opening up to him. I been wanting to type about it for like a week and I have bits of it saved in my drafts folder thing here.
It went from him justifying cheating, making fun of what I said about how I value honesty then giving himself the right to get homophobic on me after he found me following a LGBT Instagram page after I literally told him that it's a personal matter and I don't have to explain or justify anything regarding it. Then he tried to force a self righteous conversation about how I should "stay away from those people" and was surprised I wanted to end the sort of friendship we had. Rude and arrogant af.
It's pathetic he wasn't even a hot woman or anything 😅 I'm not upset about losing him I'm happy I did. The only thing I feel sad about is that I found myself alone cornered in that situation while I could be doing cooler things with my life. I know I deserve better after all I been through. And fuk it I will get there.(I really didn't want this post to be about that person but I have to get it out, btw he was an online friend he added me on FB around 2024 I think through a support group for people with physical disabilities).
I think I'm done.
Maybe I'll be this person to me. I'll take me out it'll be me, myself, music and my coffee mug.We'll be happy and stuff.
I wish humans were not social beings by default. There's so much I want to talk about but I can't find the right person to tell them too not even my best friend. It's a daily struggle till I pick the wrong person and vent to them lol last time I literally cut a sort of friend out of my life after the shit I heard after opening up to him. I been wanting to type about it for like a week and I have bits of it saved in my drafts folder thing here.
It went from him justifying cheating, making fun of what I said about how I value honesty then giving himself the right to get homophobic on me after he found me following a LGBT Instagram page after I literally told him that it's a personal matter and I don't have to explain or justify anything regarding it. Then he tried to force a self righteous conversation about how I should "stay away from those people" and was surprised I wanted to end the sort of friendship we had. Rude and arrogant af.
It's pathetic he wasn't even a hot woman or anything 😅 I'm not upset about losing him I'm happy I did. The only thing I feel sad about is that I found myself alone cornered in that situation while I could be doing cooler things with my life. I know I deserve better after all I been through. And fuk it I will get there.(I really didn't want this post to be about that person but I have to get it out, btw he was an online friend he added me on FB around 2024 I think through a support group for people with physical disabilities).
I think I'm done.
31-35, M
