Valentines Day will be in 11 days so will you also be single or will you have a Valentine?
So unfortunately this Valentines Day will be lonely and single for me. Yeah I am 25 now and its hard that I missed out on that young love feeling which comes on Valentines days as I never been in a relationship. It looks like this year too I will have to jam to the song Valentines Day by Linkin Park like I have been doing every year on this day since 2016. At least in 2024 and even last year(2025) I had some structure. In 2024 around this time, I was still in 2nd sem of my MBA, where I was at least surrounded by women. There was this public speaker named DJ who used to take some sessions for us in MBA and he was a fun man and he used to call me a Valentines boy because I was quiet but had crush on Anshika in class and used to blush about her. Another girl Suhani also used to ask others that why I used to not talk to her so DJ used to say jokingly that I had girls who were fan of me. That was also around the time I developed crush on Akansha and talked with her for the first time. So yeah I still had things going on. Last year 2025 was different as I entered my final semester of MBA and it was dissertation so no classes but I just entered that edtech internship so still surrounded by women to talk to and I didn't have to rely on cold approaches for socializing. I remember the office on Valentines Day last year , we had a fun session of writing confessions on a paper about someone they have crush on. I was new there so no crush on someone in office so I confessed about Anshika even though she wasn't there and no one knew her there either. It felt surreal when they read about Anshika (it was anonymous confession without writing our name so most didn't know I wrote it) especially as no one knew her there and she wasn't there.
But this year its really far worse. I am still applying and searching for jobs and due to the hard job market, I am still searching for one despite living in Bangalore in India which is the major IT hub. MBA is fully done 2-3 months ago so I am neither in University nor in a workplace and mostly in home living with parents in a boring residential neighborhood Munnekolala so just not surrounded by women like I was in 2024 and even last year. Its been a frustrating phase honestly. Even if I was single last year, I still could socialize more but this year has been dry and far more lonely and feels like time is slipping away. The only way I socialize nowadays is by going to Central Bangalore areas by approaching both Indian and foreign women just for some social oxygen which our area Munnekolala is lacking. Honestly if I didn't do that, I would have been far lonelier and would have got mental fatigue and emotional numbness, so I am glad that Central Bangalore exists which is one of the few liberal and cosmopolitan pockets of India. I also missed out in my teenage years due to bullying which caused unusual shyness and trust issues which continued until some of my early 20s, and I only broke out of it at 23 in mid 2024. But yeah most conversations have been episodic so there isn't continuity like last year or 2024. Only sad thing is some people will post their Valentines on Instagram especially some Bengali women who had Long term relationships and as a Bengali man I feel like I am one of the few Bengalis who is single. What do you feel?
But this year its really far worse. I am still applying and searching for jobs and due to the hard job market, I am still searching for one despite living in Bangalore in India which is the major IT hub. MBA is fully done 2-3 months ago so I am neither in University nor in a workplace and mostly in home living with parents in a boring residential neighborhood Munnekolala so just not surrounded by women like I was in 2024 and even last year. Its been a frustrating phase honestly. Even if I was single last year, I still could socialize more but this year has been dry and far more lonely and feels like time is slipping away. The only way I socialize nowadays is by going to Central Bangalore areas by approaching both Indian and foreign women just for some social oxygen which our area Munnekolala is lacking. Honestly if I didn't do that, I would have been far lonelier and would have got mental fatigue and emotional numbness, so I am glad that Central Bangalore exists which is one of the few liberal and cosmopolitan pockets of India. I also missed out in my teenage years due to bullying which caused unusual shyness and trust issues which continued until some of my early 20s, and I only broke out of it at 23 in mid 2024. But yeah most conversations have been episodic so there isn't continuity like last year or 2024. Only sad thing is some people will post their Valentines on Instagram especially some Bengali women who had Long term relationships and as a Bengali man I feel like I am one of the few Bengalis who is single. What do you feel?
22-25, M