I used to believe in a higher purpose.

I would go to work everyday, sure that I was serving God by being productive in a society that does good.

I would think on things, feel them deeply, and believe in them.

Now I don't believe in anything. Except that I'm going to work to sustain my own life, which is certainly temporary, in a society whose values I frankly no longer agree with.

I'm not responsible enough to have a family at this point in time, and even if I were, what would that mean? More people serving the same temporary purpose for a moment in time, just to eventually breathe their last breath.

No matter what job title I take on or what I do with it, I carry this burden with me.