im getting to the stage as being dumb

ive had 2 chances to get my liscence ,and i didnt do it,got pulled again,i thought about outrunning them,and had the chance,must be getting old,lol got 600$ in tickets,all can be erased if i register my car and take drivers test,for some reason im afraid to take it,dont know why,but soon judge will get me as habitual offender,and ill not be able to get license for three years,i know its my fault,and its hard to outrun ten cops who know where i live,basically ,i violated my probation ,i called and told them,if i take test ,insure honda,all charges dropped,give me kick in ass so i can be legal,guess im afraid to be legali got 20 days before court,gonna ask bosses wife ,to use her car for test,pester me text me,i know i can do it,but why cant i🤔