My sense of self has been lost.
Sense of self can mean a number of things.
In this case I'll tell you what I mean.
I used to enjoy driving and listening to music. It was relaxing. Not anymore. Yes it's enjoyable. It's also lonely. What's the point of it, if the experience will terminate at myself? Someday I will die and all those memories will be forgotten. Terminated.
I used to enjoy playing video games by myself. Not anymore.
I used to enjoy having worked a productive job.
There used to be this sense I had that if I enjoyed something, it was important.
No. I'm just another ant on this hill. My story will be forgotten like so many others.
In this case I'll tell you what I mean.
I used to enjoy driving and listening to music. It was relaxing. Not anymore. Yes it's enjoyable. It's also lonely. What's the point of it, if the experience will terminate at myself? Someday I will die and all those memories will be forgotten. Terminated.
I used to enjoy playing video games by myself. Not anymore.
I used to enjoy having worked a productive job.
There used to be this sense I had that if I enjoyed something, it was important.
No. I'm just another ant on this hill. My story will be forgotten like so many others.
