They say most people have a mental health episode in their life - what was yours ?

I'm 42 now and i am still the suicidal little boy i was when the thoughts first came up 30 or so years ago. I however found ways to anchor myself to life. For me it's the little things like for example an upcoming season of an anime i love or a game that is going to release in the next year or two or my muscles which i spend lots of time and sweat on and last but certainly not least my parents who are old but still alive and kicking.