im scared of life

i have everything i want and need, but why do i still feel empty.

im bipolar and i think im going through an episode, it's been days. im self-aware yet cant do anything.

i don't know what to do. where to ask for help. who to talk to. im lost, im alone, i dont know what's next. scared of tomorrow. i tried everything that could make me feel better it's not working. what else can i do?

talking about it to others suck cause people see you as a time bomb. you're good right now and the next you arent. im losing people. losing myself. it's draining. i want to breathe. it's tiring. can i stop