Life is so quiet ATM
So for a few years there I had a very active social life then from around 2014 it slowly started to slow down.
In 2015 I met someone I thought was going to be the one and that left me nearly having a nervous breakdown.
Then I isolated to heal I got back with an ex on a causal type of thing from 2017 to 2020. When we went into lockdown I was single. I think I was single until 2022.
I started dating again and well as we know the dating scene is crap so it was always short lived.
I started a course and made some connections with 2 women who I thought I'd really develop into a lasting friendship.
In 2024 my friend and I decided to cut one of the other girls off. I was finding that she was really rude and verbally attacking me, like as if everything I was saying was triggering her.
I started to take a closer look at her behaviour and in all honesty it made no sense to me. Even when I spoke to my other friend she said she had noticed it and didn't know where it was coming from.
She was the only married one out of the three of us, but on three separate occasions had questionable relationships with men other than her husband.
The first one was a guy she claims was her best friend but both of us thought was her husband only to be corrected.
The second became a stalker that she required the person he banned from attending her place of work.
The third guy was on another course the two women started together and she ended up going to court about but never told her husband about.
All very odd. The last straw was her birthday, I encountered a serious financial crisis and just asked if we could do something small for her birthday, to celebrate the day and later we could do something more.
She insulted both myself and our other friend saying that she didn't want to go to a pub and went to the outing she suggested to us with her "good friends!" (New work colleagues)
So that was the end of that friendship.
When I met my partner in 2023, I had a steady group of people that I met up with periodically.
1 guy, I've known 6 years now. 2 ladies from here that I try and visit 1x a year at least, the nice girl from the course and people I've gotten to know from walking my dog.
Although my life wasn't popping with lots of people coming in and out of my home. I could say that I had people that at least looked out for me. Excluding my family.
I spent a lot of time with my partner. And I think I may have neglected some of these friendships not maliciously but as a way to nurture what I thought was going to finally bey forever.
We taken 3 holidays together 2 abroad, 1 with my family and another in the UK.
We have a son and are having another.
But things between us turned really sour.
I know for me being around him 24-7 has been the hardest to get used to. Because I've never spent so much time with a partner. Especially when he requires to know so much. I started to feel like my thoughts weren't even my own.
Moving to live with him and his family was horrible especially as the dynamic wasn't friendly.
He doesn't have friends so to speak and doesn't know his neighbours despite living there for 3 years. So it was pretty isolating.
I was supposed to be starting back from mat leave the end of November but somehow I've racked up a tone of annual leave so I don't return until December. But I won't be there long as I'll be off again on Feb.
This period of time where my son goes to his dad's half the time is really quiet.
It's peaceful but really quiet.
I've thought about inviting friends round and stuff but actually I'm too tired to host.
I've made plans for bonfire night but I'm not really interested or motivated to do more.
To fill my home with noise, I've started listening to audiobooks again.
I've been really enjoying them- "Becoming Meg Dashwood" is the current one.
I know this quiet is temporary because when the new baby comes oh my I'm going to be so busy and doing it as a single parent is going to be interesting.
In 2015 I met someone I thought was going to be the one and that left me nearly having a nervous breakdown.
Then I isolated to heal I got back with an ex on a causal type of thing from 2017 to 2020. When we went into lockdown I was single. I think I was single until 2022.
I started dating again and well as we know the dating scene is crap so it was always short lived.
I started a course and made some connections with 2 women who I thought I'd really develop into a lasting friendship.
In 2024 my friend and I decided to cut one of the other girls off. I was finding that she was really rude and verbally attacking me, like as if everything I was saying was triggering her.
I started to take a closer look at her behaviour and in all honesty it made no sense to me. Even when I spoke to my other friend she said she had noticed it and didn't know where it was coming from.
She was the only married one out of the three of us, but on three separate occasions had questionable relationships with men other than her husband.
The first one was a guy she claims was her best friend but both of us thought was her husband only to be corrected.
The second became a stalker that she required the person he banned from attending her place of work.
The third guy was on another course the two women started together and she ended up going to court about but never told her husband about.
All very odd. The last straw was her birthday, I encountered a serious financial crisis and just asked if we could do something small for her birthday, to celebrate the day and later we could do something more.
She insulted both myself and our other friend saying that she didn't want to go to a pub and went to the outing she suggested to us with her "good friends!" (New work colleagues)
So that was the end of that friendship.
When I met my partner in 2023, I had a steady group of people that I met up with periodically.
1 guy, I've known 6 years now. 2 ladies from here that I try and visit 1x a year at least, the nice girl from the course and people I've gotten to know from walking my dog.
Although my life wasn't popping with lots of people coming in and out of my home. I could say that I had people that at least looked out for me. Excluding my family.
I spent a lot of time with my partner. And I think I may have neglected some of these friendships not maliciously but as a way to nurture what I thought was going to finally bey forever.
We taken 3 holidays together 2 abroad, 1 with my family and another in the UK.
We have a son and are having another.
But things between us turned really sour.
I know for me being around him 24-7 has been the hardest to get used to. Because I've never spent so much time with a partner. Especially when he requires to know so much. I started to feel like my thoughts weren't even my own.
Moving to live with him and his family was horrible especially as the dynamic wasn't friendly.
He doesn't have friends so to speak and doesn't know his neighbours despite living there for 3 years. So it was pretty isolating.
I was supposed to be starting back from mat leave the end of November but somehow I've racked up a tone of annual leave so I don't return until December. But I won't be there long as I'll be off again on Feb.
This period of time where my son goes to his dad's half the time is really quiet.
It's peaceful but really quiet.
I've thought about inviting friends round and stuff but actually I'm too tired to host.
I've made plans for bonfire night but I'm not really interested or motivated to do more.
To fill my home with noise, I've started listening to audiobooks again.
I've been really enjoying them- "Becoming Meg Dashwood" is the current one.
I know this quiet is temporary because when the new baby comes oh my I'm going to be so busy and doing it as a single parent is going to be interesting.
31-35, F
