Working on self love is the best work you can do, but then, it makes reality unfit

I am at this space where I got outside of myself after so long. And what I find is, I no longer am willing to entertain what isn't in resonance with who I am.

Getting used to my inner voice saying benevolent things to me, helping me grow, bloom, flow, and then being met with unwelcoming behaviors outside, I am not willing to entertain them.

The voice saying that it comes through my mother, and that I should humble myself, I should quiet and only give love to her, that voice is being met with reason.
I am aware of how reason is of a lower vibrational frequency, the male principle, order.
And yet, it's the truth. I don't want to be fighting the truth any longer. Or myself.

She again said something bad about me and I responded to her, I said how I get the message of being unwelcomed here, I told her I understand it is her space but I am also here, and I need some space in order to be feeling good. She told me I should learn to care for the other person. And I responded that, she can do the same too.
it feels pointless truly to be looking at it.

What is clear though, it was already but it now is very clear, is that I should be moving fast from this place.
I am not a vibrational match to my mother any longer and that is fine. I need to move.