Why do I sometimes still long for her at times?
So as you all know I had a massive crush on this girl Anshika who was my classmate in 1st year of MBA in 2023 to early 2024 so not super long ago. Idk I just had crush on her at the time as she was sweet and warm. She even called me cute which made my day that day and I gave her chocolate twice too. The crush lasted for 7 months from July 2023 to Feb 2024 but stopped talking for a while after I got crush on this another pretty girl Akansha during our 2nd semester of MBA but in 3rd semester of MBA, Anshika again talked briefly with me and then again 4 months ago when we went to our campus for dissertation report submission, she said me Hi as usual and I blushed and said her Hi and she smiled and laughed. So yeah she never distanced herself fully and still follows me on Instagram.
But I still feel this longing about her. Like today she viewed my Instagram story. Idk why it feels as if she is validating and comforting me when she views my story almost as if she is giving me a hug or something when my mood is bad. We are both 24 year old now but I wish if I could talk to her again. The door isn't close yet. She again initiated a Hi just 4 months ago. Also she looks so damn pretty in her current Insta profile pic and I still remember how she smiled at me in campus. I really wish to bump into her in Church Street area of our city Bangalore, India which is youthful and cosmopolitan and show her my new confidence and talk to her. Maybe in Nov during our official graduation ceremony I can talk to her but idk whether it will be the same or not. I really wish I could have a long conversation with her and see her smile. I really long for that connection a lot.
But I still feel this longing about her. Like today she viewed my Instagram story. Idk why it feels as if she is validating and comforting me when she views my story almost as if she is giving me a hug or something when my mood is bad. We are both 24 year old now but I wish if I could talk to her again. The door isn't close yet. She again initiated a Hi just 4 months ago. Also she looks so damn pretty in her current Insta profile pic and I still remember how she smiled at me in campus. I really wish to bump into her in Church Street area of our city Bangalore, India which is youthful and cosmopolitan and show her my new confidence and talk to her. Maybe in Nov during our official graduation ceremony I can talk to her but idk whether it will be the same or not. I really wish I could have a long conversation with her and see her smile. I really long for that connection a lot.
22-25, M