I don't know which hurts more

Seeing pics of the past and thinking about all the shit I shouldn't have lost healthwise or people telling me about things they want to do in the near future and me wondering if I'll make it till then or if I'll be facing more issues and my life will be twice as hard by then.

I have constipation again and it's messing with my head. I don't want to live this life like this, I deserve better.

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OlderSometimesWiser · F

I face a different set of afflictions but I feel your pain in some ways. Dealing with all I’ve lost, watching people have things I’ve never been able to have. Trying to be happy for them as they continue to prosper while I either stay in place or decline. Fighting self pity and pushing to keep a smile on my face. Some days wanting to press on, some days wanting to give up.

Remembering something my mom always said, “it’s easier to be happy for someone else when you’ve got yours.” I’ve never wanted anything but the best for my loved ones but it just gets gut wrenching always being the one who’s empty handed.

SpiritSkye

Yes you do. I'm really sorry.

Prettybratbi1tch · 26-30, F

Wish there was something I could do or say to take away your pain

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