The reason why i don't make as cringe posts about my crushes anymore now as last year and 2023. Is it a good thing?
You all might have noticed that in 2023 and last year I used to post so much about my crushes. Thats because in 2023 when I entered 1st semester of MBA, i had crush on this girl Anshika in our class for 7 months who was the best as she initiated conversations with me, even calling me cute when i was still a bit shy, in early 2024, I was in 2nd semester of MBA and had a crush on this pretty girl Akankshya for a few months and then in mid to late 2024(Aug to Sept), during my 3rd semester of MBA i was talking to this introverted and soft spoken girl Dimple who was special to me as she was the first girl i approached confidently without anyone's help but she eventually unfollowed me on Instagram and distanced herself.
But you all have noticed how my posts were cringe like this "Omg you all won't believe Anshika called me cute 🤭😍" or "Today I finally hugged Akankshya 😍😁" or "I am missing Akankshya 😭😭" or "Dimple suddenly unfollowed me on Insta 😢😭" which might feel high school like to most older people in their 40s to 60s here even though i was 22-23. But i posted that way because i missed out on dating or even female interactions during teenage days due to lots of bullying and isolation so i was too shy to talk to girls or even look at them so even at 22 and 23 i felt like that 14-15 year old boy mentally while getting crush on Anshika or Akankshya. Also i felt safe to post it that way as we were in a structured MBA campus setting so we could meet regularly making it feel more high school like even if it was grad school actually.
But now in 2025 I am 24 and no longer post that way using too many emojis or emotions. Thats because i have been through a toxic workplace recently where i interned and got unfairly fired where i socialized with women too. Now MBA is basically done with only official graduation pending and i am still searching for a job or internship so mostly in home so unable to meet people in a structured setting. So i am mostly interacting with women on Instagram who are my MBA batchmates and peers and through cold approaching both foreign and Indian women in UB City mall, Church Street Cafes etc. The Instagram ones tho often gives delayed responses and few even ghosts so it makes things unpredictable. With foreign women, i talked with ones all way from 21 to 39 age so far and I am much more confident now so I feel much more adult now taking social risks. I no longer get the butterflies feeling with these women as its not the same as meeting women in a classroom setting where I can see her daily so there is this unpredictability nowadays
But you all have noticed how my posts were cringe like this "Omg you all won't believe Anshika called me cute 🤭😍" or "Today I finally hugged Akankshya 😍😁" or "I am missing Akankshya 😭😭" or "Dimple suddenly unfollowed me on Insta 😢😭" which might feel high school like to most older people in their 40s to 60s here even though i was 22-23. But i posted that way because i missed out on dating or even female interactions during teenage days due to lots of bullying and isolation so i was too shy to talk to girls or even look at them so even at 22 and 23 i felt like that 14-15 year old boy mentally while getting crush on Anshika or Akankshya. Also i felt safe to post it that way as we were in a structured MBA campus setting so we could meet regularly making it feel more high school like even if it was grad school actually.
But now in 2025 I am 24 and no longer post that way using too many emojis or emotions. Thats because i have been through a toxic workplace recently where i interned and got unfairly fired where i socialized with women too. Now MBA is basically done with only official graduation pending and i am still searching for a job or internship so mostly in home so unable to meet people in a structured setting. So i am mostly interacting with women on Instagram who are my MBA batchmates and peers and through cold approaching both foreign and Indian women in UB City mall, Church Street Cafes etc. The Instagram ones tho often gives delayed responses and few even ghosts so it makes things unpredictable. With foreign women, i talked with ones all way from 21 to 39 age so far and I am much more confident now so I feel much more adult now taking social risks. I no longer get the butterflies feeling with these women as its not the same as meeting women in a classroom setting where I can see her daily so there is this unpredictability nowadays
22-25, M