I search for you when I don't see you.

and when I do find you I feel at ease seeing you living your life. Just makes me feel satisfied knowing you're safe, healthy and enjoying life.
I don't want to disturb you, I love you too much to do so, because perhaps in your eyes I can be annoying and that's okay with me, I don't want to annoy you.
I'm happy for you, yet sad (for myself lol).

[something I wish I could tell you but instead I'm writing it here]