i am alone, but sometimes we need friends or family to be around to enjoy the moment

I am alone for a quit a while or maybe a long span ( say more then 5 years, i have had hard times in life. But i believe i am way to honest or sentimental for people and they just can joke around. It took me long tone to realise it and i know now that it is hard to be available for people. But i can't always be alone, i have got few weaknesses, i need to socialize too to cherish and recover).

But i don't know what to do?