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These are the things that matter to me.

I feel we need to heal our countries children and give them more attention. Yes, it's all fine and dandy to help other countries, but lets start here.

I have been homeless. I come from a broken family. My Mom was an addict. My Dad was labeled schizophrenic. Both had terrible lives, but they were lovely people beyond their addictions and illnesses. My mom was a meth addict, but she was very loving. I used to hate her until I realized her pain. They were both repeating cycles. I to went down the road of addiction and mental illness. I was an alcoholic most of my youth. I partied, slept around and did what my mother did. I was labeled bipolar, a brat, self-absorbed and destructive. I didn't know any better.

I finally sought help and became the woman I am today. Yes, I still have trauma, anger, sadness and deep pain, but now...I get to be an inspiration for other women. I get to do chores. I get to have bad days. I get to eat dinner. I get to endure life with a full concious.

I'm so proud of both my parents. They worked hard to overcome their family curses. They did the best they could with what they knew and had. I'd never change parents. I love them both so much that it hurts to know I hated them so much at one time.

I always wanted my own children but deep down it's a blessing I never had them. They would have endured so much crap. I'm glad the cycle ends with me.

Just some ramblings. I hope you all find your center. I hope you all find peace in life. We've all had something traumatic that helped form us. I would not change a thing about my life. It helped mold me into a fairly decent lady.
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KingofBones1 · 46-50, M
We all go through struggles and we all have a path but what counts most is those who put their past behind them or do what they can to pull themselves out of the gutter those who make an effort to strive to do better and bigger things are the ones that should receive the help. Those who choose to stay in their Quagmire should not. I commend you because I too have been homeless. I was raised since the age of 13 in state-sponsored group homes with the hard case kids. At 14 I witnessed my big brother being murdered and later I became involved in gangs at the age of 17 it was a choice to either be released to the streets or to the military I chose to serve by 18 I was overseas in the Balkans staring at Mass Graves. Later by returned to the world not knowing my way in life was homeless for 2 years but work for a while as a prep chef later 9/11 came and the rest is pretty much history. In the meantime I have dealt with things like narcotics and liquor to get rid of some of the memories and pain that I have felt throughout my life and struggled with my own inner demons including twice trying to erase myself. It took me over 10 years to get my head right the thing that helped me most was hunting and the peace I found in the wilderness carrying a pack and a rifle it helped to bring me back to reality and a calming atmosphere and refocus my energy. So I definitely understand the struggle and I commend you for doing what you need to do to rise above
ThesebootsRhungry · 46-50, F
@KingofBones1 Thank you for sharing and for fighting the good fight. I'm sorry you witnessed such atrocities. Yes, being out in nature helps. Spending time hunting is a productive way to find peace. I understand that as my husband hunts. It's a healthy outlet. Thank you for your service and inspiration.
KingofBones1 · 46-50, M
@ThesebootsRhungry you are definitely most welcome and thank you for sharing as well I hope that your days continue to be blessed and prosperous
ThesebootsRhungry · 46-50, F
@KingofBones1 You too. Thank you 💙
KingofBones1 · 46-50, M
@ThesebootsRhungry 🩵 absolutely welcome