I am in a schrödinger's cat moment

nor this
nor that

hovering

the cats are sleeping
now one is looking at me intensely
left eye, right eye
he turned away

God, Goddess, please let only what is for my highest good to happen
and I promise
I'll try to not cry like a baby

Excitement
Disappointment
Realism

Wisdom
Sofia
Owl
Night
Fear
Yin
A clingy cat
Needs
Body
Human
Woman
Catwoman

I trust in Divine Timing
yet I'm scared