These thoughts of removing myself from the world are coming back

Of devoting a five year in some place somewhere and just letting everyone forget about me and me forget about them and just.. I don't know.. train ..study.. just find something to get sucked into.
This life sometimes hurt.

I had dinner. Took beloved Fireball the cat outside the house as I got mad because he was throwing stuff and I was just seeing ticks crawling upon him and I found two today crawling upon me... And a third one on my bed. It's messy.
Anyways tomorrow's going to be good. A woman is about to drive me up with catfood, till the neighbours and from there I'll carry the food here. That'll give me some days off carrying and I want to go for a couple of excursions around.

I've been drinking lots of coffee and eating silly stuff and I am going to tackle this next.. I thought to myself, if I've managed to push a guy aside, I'll do the same with sugar, coffee, fat and soon I'll be feeling better too.
It's getting warmer too. Yesterday and for the first time since I arrived I didn't light up a fire. It wasn't very cozy as I've spent most of the time in my blankets but then, it's not that there's much to do...
So I'll carry less wood too and relax a bit.
I'm sleeping 9-10 hours daily the last days..

Ah also I did some exercise today with the help of a tree and I liked that.

Okay day's over ❤
I'll sleep soon..:)