Kinda tired of being told how to deal with my pain. What I'm allowed to share, what to keep quiet, what to feel and not feel...

And mostly from people who don't understand what its like to of never felt safe or loved. It makes it harder to open up, it makes me feel guilty for wanting connection because I can't match others level of composure. I care more. I work harder. I empathize quietly because why would someone who has good people in their life want to deal with someone who isn't happy and giving 24/7. Yet no matter what I do, I find out eventually that I screwed up, and I don't even know what I did.

I won't quit trying, but it might break me one day and it'll never not hurt to be the one who couldn't get it right.

All attacks at my self worth will be deleted. I'm not explaining to people who don't even care about me what I've been through and how strong I am.

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OlderSometimesWiser · F

Understandable and I find your sharing to be a beautiful thing but unfortunately when you allow yourself to be vulnerable out on Main Street you’re gonna get responses from users with IQs ranging from Moron to Magnificent.

MarbleMarvel

@OlderSometimesWiser there's nowhere else to be vulnerable. There's no one. And I don't know wtf to do anymore. The only thing that ever gets validated is that people don't want to hear it. Which I understand I guess. I don't know.

OlderSometimesWiser · F

@MarbleMarvel I’ll always hope you feel that you can be vulnerable here. And seeing responses to your posts, I know that many others would agree. My comment was referring to expectations and of course you’re always gonna hear from some who are so stupid, they’d go the dentist to get Bluetooth. But I’ve also seen you validated by people who do want to hear it and offer kind words and a caring heart. That’s what I’d focus on. Take what nourishes you and leave the rest.