I am stuck in a really boring and dull internship now. What should I even do now?
So i am 24 and currently in my final semester of my MBA which is dissertation based so we have to do an internship so i am doing a 6 months internship now which will eventually become full time after i am fully done with my MBA. But its boring. I started my internship just 6-7 days ago and its already draining me and it was just a boring induction program so far. Also socially it isnt fulfilling here even though everyone is young here in their 20s so all the interns are within 21-26 age range and even the CEO is also 26 or 27 year old as its an edtech startup and the full time workers are also max 28-30 maybe. But the gender ratio is skewed here with males vastly outnumbering females in my internship batch unlike my MBA where the gender ratio is more balanced so male-female interactions were more common.
Also many people are from engineering backgrounds as well and those guys are more awkward near girls and stick with guys. It feels like i am back to my undergrad days when I was pursuing engineering and the environment was male dominated but the difference is i was shy during my engineering days but after entering my MBA i can confidently talk to girls now and even in this internship, I talked to 4 girls so far but i just don't feel the spark here which i felt in my MBA environment. There is a big cafeteria where we students socialized and I approached girls whereas in the internship its just in a compact office building with no cafeteria or even proper corridors for socializing. There arent much varieties of girls here like it was in my MBA.
The environment in my internship feels really dull. I remember having so many warm and fulfilling conversations with girls in my MBA whether juniors or same year and even had crush on 2 or 3 girls and in the internship even though i am talking with 3 or 4 girls, I dont feel much attraction or anything as 1 of them is reserved, another one seems to stick more with her bew group of friends and another one also seems to be dull and have a lifeless expression and as an introvert i prefer 1 on 1 conversations with girls than talking in groups. Also the working hours for the internship is 9 hours from 11 AM to 8 PM and as its an edtech startup with a sales role, even Saturdays and Sundays are working days and only one day off in either of the week days so maybe thats why i feel socially unfulfilled as well as i feel drained and the skewed gender ratio makes things worse.
I wish there was at least a cafeteria here and there were more females opting for this role. It feels like I am not having enough options. I am still connected with some of the girls from my MBA on Instagram but it isnt the same as in person conversations. I might meet them after 2 months or so as I am not done with my MBA yet but it will only be for dissertation report submission and for viva. It sucks that i regressed back to the same engineering environment after having a much better MBA environment.
Also many people are from engineering backgrounds as well and those guys are more awkward near girls and stick with guys. It feels like i am back to my undergrad days when I was pursuing engineering and the environment was male dominated but the difference is i was shy during my engineering days but after entering my MBA i can confidently talk to girls now and even in this internship, I talked to 4 girls so far but i just don't feel the spark here which i felt in my MBA environment. There is a big cafeteria where we students socialized and I approached girls whereas in the internship its just in a compact office building with no cafeteria or even proper corridors for socializing. There arent much varieties of girls here like it was in my MBA.
The environment in my internship feels really dull. I remember having so many warm and fulfilling conversations with girls in my MBA whether juniors or same year and even had crush on 2 or 3 girls and in the internship even though i am talking with 3 or 4 girls, I dont feel much attraction or anything as 1 of them is reserved, another one seems to stick more with her bew group of friends and another one also seems to be dull and have a lifeless expression and as an introvert i prefer 1 on 1 conversations with girls than talking in groups. Also the working hours for the internship is 9 hours from 11 AM to 8 PM and as its an edtech startup with a sales role, even Saturdays and Sundays are working days and only one day off in either of the week days so maybe thats why i feel socially unfulfilled as well as i feel drained and the skewed gender ratio makes things worse.
I wish there was at least a cafeteria here and there were more females opting for this role. It feels like I am not having enough options. I am still connected with some of the girls from my MBA on Instagram but it isnt the same as in person conversations. I might meet them after 2 months or so as I am not done with my MBA yet but it will only be for dissertation report submission and for viva. It sucks that i regressed back to the same engineering environment after having a much better MBA environment.
22-25, M
