Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom. I did 40 years ago. I shed myself of the people and environment that aided in my situation. I crawled out of that hole and took my life back. Living it on my terms and nobody elses
Don’t know if I really see it as your being unrelatable. Seems like once people reach a certain age, most have experienced some kind of hurt, have baggage and a story to tell. But as you’ve said, it comes down to finding someone who handles their burdens in a compatible way and is willing to share the workload.