So now I’m getting help with my BPD

And it’s had me thinking, I have no sense of identity and maybe this gives me a chance to create one. Turn myself into the person I’ve always wanted to be but always thought I couldn’t be (and by that I mean I gave myself 10000000 excuses instead of doing something with myself). Being 24 I always thought I was too late to change myself and be the person I wanted to but I was told instead of thinking im too old to change myself I need to think im too young to live the rest of my life as someone else. So I’m gonna focus on being the woman I’ve dreamt of since I was little. I have a lot more to learn than I realised I did and no one on here knows me irl so imma ask my weird questions on here. First one which is probably the most basic- where do you all learn your makeup? Is it from YouTube or just practicing? How do you know what colours to put together? Where do I go to find the right tone of foundation? And most importantly, does the muffin man still live on Drury lane?