A diary on loneliness and greed

When I was younger and I still do nowadays whenever I have a bad day, I would always tell to myself how I am living a lonely life and how I am alone. Nowadays the way I am seeing it, is to not be greedy about anything, including human contact. And so I enjoy my days alone, and so I enjoy my days with people.

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SW-User

I feel bound to be alone for the rest of my life now, for I have this need for time alone, while I love deeply. I know it's part of my duality, and fighting with your duality only makes you at ends with yourself uncomfortable without any kind of equanimity, becoming a ruse, and yes there is this want inside myself having someone I connect with deeply, they understand me and those questions become something of the past.

It's harder for me in a way, I have had those connections. So now I just try and accept, life comes to me as I give to life.