I saw my ex today when I went into work, I am trying to brush away the anxiety

He was using my office computer and said hello to me like normal, and asked me how I'd been.

I realized when I saw him that I wanted him to hug me so badly, and I wanted him to be who I thought he was.

I wanted him to kiss my forehead and reassure me.

I still feel that pit in my chest like, maybe he'll get better.

But no. So now I'm sitting in my apartment trying not to cry, but it's perfectly normal to mourn a relationship so that's okay.