Honestly I am missing Anshika even now. Did I really mess up and wasted my time?
If you all don't know, Anshika was my first crush when we started our MBA classes in July 2023. She was the first girl to say me Hi on our first day of MBA and I remember she even asked me whether i had lunch or not and it melted my heart and made me fall for her. We are both 23 year old now and I miss July to December 2023 when we were in 1st semester of our MBA and I would get butterflies over her and look at her and smile. She is basically a North Indian who came to our city Bangalore in South India for MBA and I am from Siliguri in West Bengal but living in Bangalore for many years. She would also initiate conversations with me and i even gave her chocolate twice. Everyone knew in our class that I liked her and she would also smile and call me cute at times. She used to hang out with this guy Vaibhav a lot tho who is 24 now and he too knew i liked her but I still couldnt make a move even after having crush on her for 7 months. But I messed up
In Feb 2024, ever since I got crush on this other girl Akankshya who is also within 21-23 age range and in a different classroom, Anshika started ignoring me. Everything messed up. We were in 2nd semester that time. Anshika stopped initiating conversations with me and I kept running behind Akankshya and wasted 3 months from Feb to May and it was completely one sided. Not only that, it felt like i was pushing away my friends too ever since I got crush on Akankshya. When i was having crush on Anshika, i was having more friends from my class and the environment was healthy in my classroom but it felt i was growing distance from my classmates ever since I got crush on Akankshya. I even hugged her and she gave an awkward smile and almost a month ago she avoided my phone calls and it shows she isnt into me at all. Now i am regretting going behind her. Now I don't have any chance with Anshika as she isnt even talking to me. I could have similar focused on her instead and tried socializing with girls in my class like Shivangini. I am missing Anshika and feeling emotional about her. I wish I didnt go for Akankshya. Anshika still follows me on instagram and she views my Instagram stories too but it hurts me that it will never be the same again. I wish things can be good again like it was a few months ago.
In Feb 2024, ever since I got crush on this other girl Akankshya who is also within 21-23 age range and in a different classroom, Anshika started ignoring me. Everything messed up. We were in 2nd semester that time. Anshika stopped initiating conversations with me and I kept running behind Akankshya and wasted 3 months from Feb to May and it was completely one sided. Not only that, it felt like i was pushing away my friends too ever since I got crush on Akankshya. When i was having crush on Anshika, i was having more friends from my class and the environment was healthy in my classroom but it felt i was growing distance from my classmates ever since I got crush on Akankshya. I even hugged her and she gave an awkward smile and almost a month ago she avoided my phone calls and it shows she isnt into me at all. Now i am regretting going behind her. Now I don't have any chance with Anshika as she isnt even talking to me. I could have similar focused on her instead and tried socializing with girls in my class like Shivangini. I am missing Anshika and feeling emotional about her. I wish I didnt go for Akankshya. Anshika still follows me on instagram and she views my Instagram stories too but it hurts me that it will never be the same again. I wish things can be good again like it was a few months ago.
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