And now in this friends' friend house lights flickering again

We were supposed to spend the weekend together and yesterday was great but today another chinese friend of hers joined us, and they're talking in Chinese all day long. K. And no, this is not the friendships that I need. We were supposed to cook together. They're in the kitchen cooking and I've asked twice if I can help and replied later.

Shifu since early have sent me a couple of messages. I owe him a little money, less than 40 euros and he's been obsessed, sending me messages full of pressure.

In the meantime I didn't manage to get much sleep yesterday and I ate way too much sugar.

I've taken the time to paint upon a print and put it out for sale on my social media in the morning without any interest so far.

Things appear to be going downhill now.
This oscillation is crazy. It makes me think that I should just stop everything and get a job in a bakery or something. Of course I'm not, it's the thoughts. I'm tired.

Let's see. It feels like a lot atm.