here i go again...

i should probably go to therapy, but also i have no motivation for it.

anyways. since when i broke up from my ex grilfriend ive been doing well until i learned she has already started dating another guy. and it was an accident so im not sure for how long she has been. it has been month or so and just before we broke up she started to talking her now boyfriend. anyways i mean i was good until i learnt that and now i have been mentally exhausted and down for a week. she hasn't still told me when they started but now i have feeling that i was just replaced and tossed aside. and i wished we could be friends still but idk, now everytime i even think about her it hurts. i think i "invested" (for a lack of a better word) to her too much and now i am feeling scared and sad because im afraid i will be alone in life for good and im too scared, tired and unmotivated to do something. i still have my one friend but i barely talk to him more than surface level stuff and we barely even hang out bc, im not sure, too busy ig.

sory if this doesnt make much sense heh...